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When you want something badly, you always don't get it. That's why key to happiness is not getting what you want but wanting what you get. So, I am in dilemma now, Shall I stay or leave? I've been working for 10 days since 22nd of August 2012 in a so called listed company. So, everyone would think that working in "big company" like this must be interesting and learnt a lot. My purpose to be here was also to learn something, but everything isn't what I thought when I started work. I thought it would only be 1 or 2 days that like that. But it last for 10 days and even now the 11th day of work, I can write blog in the company. Some people may like it, I am a fresh graduate and I hope to find something that could let me learn more, gain as much experience as I can. But, in here, I think I've learnt almost nothing? 

I was pretty sure 2 days ago that even I don't get any offer I should leave because staying here and doing the "work" now isn't what I want. And I think I don't deserve to be in this situation. should be able to do things I want. Especially that I'm at this age, I can't think of any reason to convince myself to be here. At the beginning is already a fault, I shouldn't even started here. It's kind of just a waste of time probably. 

Will it be a wrong decision again to leave? I am the weakest when come to decision making, I think I have "decision making phobia". I know that God put me here for a reason, for a reason that I don't even know. will everything work out the way it supposed to be? Or rather I should say will everything work out as I want it to be? 

I am still in dilemma until today that I retype it out. I wrote this piece of my mind in the office two days ago. Today is Saturday, but yeah, hell worst Saturday I ever had because I am in office!